As someone who has lurked in the fringes of online communities for a long time this was the title of my very first post on a fantastic community forum. As the title suggests I am a Mum of three who like most of us out there needs some inspiration now and again whether it is on parenting, relationships, children, cooking or anything else. I have had a turbulent few years as a parent and experienced things as an adult, that I never dreamed I would as a child, this will be a journey of change.
I have sadly neglected this blog over that past few years, but this morning I sat and thought about how many things have changed in my life and how many things I have experienced since I last documented anything. I love reading other peoples accounts of their experiences, I find images very powerful, I enjoy seeing the creativity of others but got to thinking about why should my thoughts and experiences not be enjoyed in the same way by someone else.
I initially added recipes and as I love cooking (and eating), there are so many amazing blogs out there but I think I really just needed to spend some time getting to know myself again.
If anyone has read my earlier posts, you can see that I had a challenging time with my family when they were growing up. I will write more on this later, but during the turmoil that was my life at the time, I lost a big part of my identity. I closed down on my needs and wants to try and make sure everyone else was ok. To me though, that's just what you need to do when you are a parent. You don't choose the good bits and leave the rest behind, as ultimately in time you realise that every single thing you experience, both good and bad shapes you into the person you are. The biggest mistake I made was to isolate myself from others, as at the time you feel you are the only one going through your difficulties, and that others will judge you. That is my biggest regret, as had I shared with others I would have seen that more often that not, those who looked like they were gliding along on the lake of life, with grace and poise, were frantically paddling to stay afloat just like me.