Sunday, 17 August 2014

Times have Changed

I have sadly neglected this blog over that past few years, but this morning I sat and thought about how many things have changed in my life and how many things I have experienced since I last documented anything. I love reading other peoples accounts of their experiences, I find images very powerful, I enjoy seeing the creativity of others but got to thinking about why should my thoughts and experiences not be enjoyed in the same way by someone else. I initially added recipes and as I love cooking (and eating), there are so many amazing blogs out there but I think I really just needed to spend some time getting to know myself again. If anyone has read my earlier posts, you can see that I had a challenging time with my family when they were growing up. I will write more on this later, but during the turmoil that was my life at the time, I lost a big part of my identity. I closed down on my needs and wants to try and make sure everyone else was ok. To me though, that's just what you need to do when you are a parent. You don't choose the good bits and leave the rest behind, as ultimately in time you realise that every single thing you experience, both good and bad shapes you into the person you are. The biggest mistake I made was to isolate myself from others, as at the time you feel you are the only one going through your difficulties, and that others will judge you. That is my biggest regret, as had I shared with others I would have seen that more often that not, those who looked like they were gliding along on the lake of life, with grace and poise, were frantically paddling to stay afloat just like me.

Thursday, 7 March 2013

It's Been A While

A long time ago I started this blog to try and help me through the many tough times life was throwing at me. At the time things were really tough with one of my children and my partners alcohol addiction.
I hoped that by writing things down, that one day my daughter would be able to see things from my point of view, and also maybe let her and her sisters understand a bit more of what made their mum the person she is.
So much has changed in the past few years, apart from the inevitable ageing process that cannot be halted.
I hope to fill in some of the gaps so that my girls can enjoy some of the memories and things that give me pleasure, and most of all, thanks to modern technology, I should be able to update things on a more regular basis.